Lights on the Sea Book Review

 Rawr Reader,

   Fall is less than a month away and I think I'm the only one who doesn't want fall to start just yet. I still want bright summer colors and shorts. Not like Florida will be cooling down anytime before December. I wish summer was a few months longer this year. 

   No? Only me? 

   :)

   I love finding indie authors or authors not really discussed on Booktube or Bookstagram or Booktwitter. Some of my favorite books were actually relatively unknown/undiscussed authors until they kept writing and the world discovered them. What is it about finding a fantastic author and keeping them to yourself as if you've discovered the next big thing? Of course I want success for my authors so I'm glad they found more readers. Let's see if this author will join their ranks!

   The synopsis for Lights on the Sea by Miquel Reina is provided by Goodreads:

On the highest point of an island, in a house clinging to the edge of a cliff, live Mary Rose and Harold Grapes, a retired couple still mourning the death of their son thirty-five years before. Weighed down by decades of grief and memories, the Grapes have never moved past the tragedy. Then, on the eve of eviction from the most beautiful and dangerously unstable perch in the area, they’re uprooted by a violent storm. The disbelieving Grapes and their home take a free-fall slide into the white-capped sea and float away.

As the past that once moored them recedes and disappears, Mary Rose and Harold are delivered from decades of sorrow by the ebb and flow of the waves. Ahead of them, a light shimmers on the horizon, guiding them toward a revelatory and cathartic new engagement with life, and all its wonder.

Reference:

This was a couple years ago but I'm pretty sure I saw the pretty cover in the recommendations list on Goodreads. Judge a book by its cover? Yes. Yes I do.

Review:

   The most reminiscent thing about this story is the fact it's a maritime Up. We have an elderly couple (or in Up's case widower) thrown into an adventure they didn't sign up for embarking on said quest aboard their steedy house which holds all the memories the couple had made together since their early marriage days. While Up has a bit more fantasy than LotS, they both travel to far off distances and encounter many challenging and unexpected things. (Because if not, would this be a story many of us would want to hear?)

   I will say I jumped into this novel expecting it to have more fantastical elements in it. So disclosure, this is very much a grounded (pun intended) survival story. They are castaways, unconventional in premise, but stranded helpless castaways all the same.

   The cast of the story is not large with a good portion of the narrative pingponging between husband and wife. In my opinion, the first half of the book didn't do justice to Mr. and Mrs. Grapes. It was in the latter half that I felt their characters shined. While I understand it's due to the "character growth" they experience over the course of the novel, I think they could have been written better in the early pages. They're from a small island, rather reclusive due to the unfortunate tragedy thirty-five years earlier, however at the beginning the characters speak and are represented rather flatly.

   This is only in the beginning though, which I would say push through if you experience the same thoughts as me because the second half of the book is well worth reaching. 

   Stories on grief are hard to swallow, because even if the action for the reason of grieving is quick, the process following the action is not. Grief can rarely be put into something as simple as words because the feelings from the experiences you share with people who we've lost can never truly be represented even in words. People may do the best they can describing their pain, but rarely can words or physical comfort be a healer to the heart. Even time cannot be measured, as for example the Grapes still grieve thirty-five years later. 

   Add grief on top of the biggest challenge: an elderly couple having to survive in an environment they were not created for: the open sea. On top of the fact they've never actually left their home island, so surviving is going to be from things they've read/heard while living in the small beach town OR learning spur-of-the-moment. Things are going to go sideways even if this wasn't a novel. 

   Takeaways from Lights on the Sea isn't hard to gather. Value things that you have because we take for granted the little blessings in our lives. We can't forget to live, not just exist. Life is an adventure and nothing can really prepare us for what is thrown at us, it's how we accept those things if we choose to accept them at all. 

   The writing isn't anything remarkable. It's the heart of the story that stands out more. It isn't trying to be grandiose. This is a simple story with simple people with a message that should resonate with people who have lost someone and maybe even those who haven't. 

   Another novel I'd recommend that follows along the lines of struggling through life is a book I read recently The Midnight Library by Matt Haig, which handles dark subjects like depression, suicide, but similarly to Lights on the Sea: grief and despondency.

I give this book 3/5 stars.

Quote:

"I don't think of all the misery but of the beauty that still remains."

-Anne Frank

My Goodreads:

https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/7170636-nicole

Next To Read:

The Fifth Season by N.K. Jemisin

Spoilers:

   I touched on this in my review but I was expecting there to be more fantasy in the adventure across the sea. The closest we see it is in the volcanic rock that supports the house. I'm not a geologist so I still don't know if the volcanic material is based off facts or Reina was bending the facts to suit the narrative. Either way, bending laws of physics for stories is a tricky business. I think because Reina kept it to just one aspect of the story (although the biggest turning point)—it worked.

   But the actual most unbelievable thing is when Mr. and Mrs. Grapes find a small village in the arctic tundra and they? speak? English? Now that's a stretch. Sure they have traded with travelers but I don't see why a) they would treat the Grapes' so coldly if they could communicate with them in English or b) how the villagers could be so fluent in English. If one day a random old couple were found on my land on the brink of death I wouldn't treat them with such ardent suspicion if my fellow villagers and I have had had contact with others who spoke the same language and therefore the capability to communicate with them. 

   

Until Next Time,

Nicole Ciel

The Only Good Indians Book Review

Rawr Reader,

Some big milestones. First and foremost: the Olympics are here! Woohoo! I am a sucker for the Olympic Games and particularly love watching the swimming and gymnastics events. While I'm cheering on the U.S. I still become oddly proud when the smaller countries or countries that haven't won many medals win. Mostly I just love the good sportsmanship between the athletes. We all needed this after last year.

And I would be remiss to neglect mentioning the world reached Earth Overshoot Day yesterday, a day where people exceed the limit of natural resources from the Earth we would be able to regenerate in that year. For us Americans, we reached it March 14. Eek! I don't want to get preachy, but we need to do better. A book that discusses climate change that I recommend is The Future We Choose: Surviving the Climate Crisis by Christiana Figueres and Tom Rivett-Carnac, which discusses steps we have taken to get where we are and what we can do moving forward. I have a book review for it too!

But world events aside, are you ready for a horror ride? I'm not sure where my sudden fascination with horror has sprouted from especially when it isn't October yet. And in hindsight, I sort of wish I waited till then. But who makes these rules? 

Let's jump right in!

The synopsis for The Only Good Indians by Stephen Graham Jones is provided by Goodreads. I really appreciate when synopses are short and sweet: 

The creeping horror of Paul Tremblay meets Tommy Orange’s There There in a dark novel of revenge, cultural identity, and the cost of breaking from tradition in this latest novel from the Jordan Peele of horror literature, Stephen Graham Jones.

Seamlessly blending classic horror and a dramatic narrative with sharp social commentary, The Only Good Indians follows four American Indian men after a disturbing event from their youth puts them in a desperate struggle for their lives. Tracked by an entity bent on revenge, these childhood friends are helpless as the culture and traditions they left behind catch up to them in a violent, vengeful way.

Reference:

I first saw this through a Barnes and Noble newsletter. Now that's a rare bookstore before reader rec!

Review:

   I want to start off with what didn't work for me because there was far more for me that did and I would prefer ending on a great note. There were actually three things, two are spoilers which I will expand on in the following segment below. 

   So what didn't work? Honestly, something that I ended up getting used to: the author's voice. It was heavier in the beginning, where I had to literally reread sentences multiple times because the rhythm of the story got disrupted. However once I got accustomed to it, it fell to the background and I actually came to enjoy his style of writing. A 180 but by the end I became familiar with it and will actually miss it when I read my next author. 

    Now not really something that didn't work but something I want to disclose at the beginning of my review rather than later is the pacing which had its trouble moments. Overall the story is captivating, however there are times where the story does drag and you kind of have to push to get to the interesting—not necessarily action-packed—parts. Pacing is something I talk about in a lot of reviews and for me is a major component of how I rate or recommend a book. But push on my friends, because there is too much to love from this book to let pacing stop you.

   Ohhh horror, how I have misjudged thee. Lately I've been finding horror or at least the horror of late to be far more than the blood and jump-scares I always pictured it to be. Jones spreads horror throughout the narrative not only through the supernatural but in the mundane. Putting a twist on the horror focusing on the narrative of Native Americans, placing their experiences in the forefront and acknowledging how the people are not like the caricatures and stereotypes our limited exposure to their cultures make them out to be. The horror within the "natural" world in each of the three parts is blood curdling, chilling, and nerve-wracking (for me in that order specifically). While the prologue isn't provided with a part name, it starts off the novel with a fantastic introduction into the horror play between the supernatural and the natural as well as the type of story we're about to enter in this power play. 

   And stories are represented in different mediums and in different ways throughout the novel. I found major significance in the author's choice of how stories are told and what the stories say about the characters. The novel starts with a newspaper article title. Then there are scenes in the middle which focus on the tradition of storytelling and what messages are being passed on, yet told in an unconventional way. The very end has a particular format of storytelling which I won't divulge but was really great and unexpected and for me one of the best parts of the book. Most importantly though is the story that connects these men, a memory that haunts Lewis and unfolds, eventually seeping into the lives of the other characters. I wasn't expecting a story to be heavily reliant on the past yet remain active and present. Jones is just a master at interweaving the past and the present. Days after I've finished the book and I'm still finding more to love about it.

   At first meeting the four men seem uninteresting and are described as characters not anyone would particularly root for. But in their situations of horror, be it supernatural or not, and their reactions to these forces of horror make us rethink our first impressions of them. While the four men each have their moments of calm and extreme, I think Lewis, who we meet second and is the most haunted of the four, might have the most character development that climaxes spectacularly. While the events in part two Sweat Lodge Massacre might certainly be more dramatic and probably the most "exciting" climax for the story overall, I think Lewis has the best individual climax. Honestly, what a star. His slipping grip on reality and his coming to terms with the events of his past just made him the most multi-faceted and all around the most enjoyable for me to read about. Horror beyond the slaughter.

   Which horror should be about I guess, however my mind can't help but be plagued with the commercialized and polished aesthetic of horror we typically see on TV. I know it's a different format, but for someone who doesn't dip into the horror genre often be it TV or books, my mind can't help but automatically see blood and jump scares and very very poor judgment choices. Horror is the actions and inactions we make toward one another, human being on human being. It's questioning our sanity. It's relatable and attainable and if told well, leaps and bounds more terrifying than the behemoths of war, natural disasters, famines, or plagues because those can be statistics, they can be distant. Horror individualizes. It sculpts experiences with colors and shades from daily life. 

   Jones handled horror so cleverly. At times below the surface, but always there. And when he brought out the big guns and depicted his moments of horror, he didn't hold back. 

    

I give this book 4/5 stars.

Quote:

"The headline for Richard Boss Ribs would be INDIAN MAN KILLED IN DISPUTE OUTSIDE BAR.

That's one way to say it."

-Stephen Graham Jones, The Only Good Indians

(this first line bears so much weight to the rest of the story I had to give it the credit it's due)

My Goodreads:

https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/7170636-nicole

Next To Read:

Lights on the Sea by Miquel Reina

Spoilers:

   I touched on what didn't work at the beginning of my review and I'll share what those two points now. In case you're trying to cheat and see, again, this is a spoiler so last chance. All right approaching the climax in the middle part we have a bunch of action. Death, death, death. One death that had me a little stumped was the death of Denorah at the hands of Cass. He was short of shooting Gabe and as a MAJOR consequence instead shoots Cass' daughter. Also earlier I briefly mentioned how Jones plays on the sanity of characters as the novel unfolded and with both Cass and Gabe believing(?) that Denorah was shot I wanted to believe that that was what happened and not just an illusion of the Elk Head Woman because she wanted to hurt the men and make them hurt each other. If not it was Jones pulling the rug out from under the reader's feet which I don't believe he'd do. So that scene, unless I read it wrong, was probably the weakest part of the book. It was a fake death but then not a death at all. I understand why it was included, I just wished there was a little more clarity afterwards.

    The second series of scenes that somewhat disappointed me was the one-on-one basketball game between Denorah and Elk Head Woman who at the time wore the body of Shaney. For me reading about sports is pretty boring. I rarely watch sports as it is (Olympics excluded~) but there's something about reading it. Action sequences aren't really the same because there aren't usually any rules and a lot of the times it has high stakes or there's a deadline or it's about survival—which I guess you could argue is what happened in Denorah's case—but I don't know, it was one of the parts of the story that dragged and I had to force myself not to skim over it because the premise is interesting, a twelve/thirteen year old is fighting a Elk Head mythical being.

   I did appreciate how the four parts each had their own climax. The most moving and important one being in the first part, The House that Ran Red. Of course without it the events in the next 200 pages wouldn't have had the same punch. Ironically the end with Denorah seemed to land the softest, as I wouldn't call it predictable just safe and expected. Denorah stops her stepdad from killing the Elk Head Woman even though she was feet away from killing her moments before as a sign of humanity's "growth" just fell a little flat for me. Also te last part only being 55 pages and Denorah plays basketball for 25 pages then runs in the snow for 25 pages got boring real quick even with the Elk Head Woman involved. I guess her strength was being in the sidelines or on the peripherals. She's sort of like Edna from The Incredibles, we can't have a whole movie with her but she can make guest appearances.

   But the Elk Head Woman thrilling scenes were favorites. When Jones had her perspective suddenly included in the narrative showing her watching Gabe or Cass or Lewis without them knowing and she was just staring, no blinking . . . The goosebumps!! So simple yet with Jones' flair. Every time a scene like this happened I readjusted my reading position to make sure my back was against a wall.

   

       

Until Next Time,

Nicole Ciel

The Telling Book Review

Rawr Reader,

Two books in one month? What! I know I'm proud of myself too. I actually finished this novel a couple days ago and am still ruminating. Much to delve into.

The synopsis for The Telling by Ursula K. Le Guin is provided by Goodreads:

Once a culturally rich world, the planet Aka has been utterly transformed by technology. Records of the past have been destroyed, and citizens are strictly monitored. But an official observer from Earth named Sutty has learned of a group of outcasts who live in the wilderness. They still believe in the ancient ways and still practice its lost religion - the Telling.

Intrigued by their beliefs, Sutty joins them on a sacred pilgrimage into the mountains...and into the dangerous terrain of her own heart, mind, and soul.

Reference:

    Instead of being rather general with a normal Instagram or Goodreads rec instead I'll share where I first heard of this prolific author, the movie: The Jane Austen Book Club. The adorable Grigg, played excellently by Hugh Dancy, is a nerd for anything sci-fi and tries to indoctrinate another less-genre-more-literary member of the eponymous group into trying out some Le Guin. Out of curiosity, I knew I had to give her a chance. 

Review:

   What's the best kind of read? Books about books. What's the next best thing? Stories about stories. Oral, written, melodic, instrumental—cast me away, spellbind me into waves of alliteration or the open winds of free verse. 

   One of my favorite things about Le Guin is her breadth of language. In my humble opinion, the structure of her stories aren't so much formed by technical frames. Her stories are as much a soul as one of her characters. You remember less about hair color or shape of nose but how they made you feel, what memories you created together. When I read a Le Guin, The Telling being my fourth, I am not only transported to another world. Her language evokes emotions as much as the actions of characters. Her world structures invite speculation and introspection. And probably one of the greatest gifts an author can leave: to have the reader discover something new with each reread.

   A quote of hers that resonates with me is from the 65th National Book Awards in 2014, where Le Guin earned the Medal for Distinguished Contribution to American Letters. She says:

"Right now, I think we need writers who know the difference between production of a market commodity and the practice of an art."

   There are people who have voices that are loud and make statements in their epochs, then there are people who speak gently and whose voices reverberate throughout history. As a writer myself, I take pride in being an artist. And hearing someone take up arms against the system no matter how small they may be or outnumbered, to use their platform to lift the message that writing isn't something to commercialize with disposable and expendable attention but to study, respect, and grow from through longevity. This work of art is a prime example.

    Our protagonist Sutty is in search of truth. The people of the planet Aka are strictly monitored. The few she interacts with spew the same scripted responses. Perhaps they live freer lives—but she never witnesses it. In an unexpected turn of events, she's granted permission as an Observer from Terra to leave the major city Dovza City and travel to a smaller community to learn cultural languages and literature—which is the reason of her presence on Aka the first place. Far from technology, far from modern civilization, the people of Okzat-Ozkat take in the alien from Earth with more nuanced curiosity and shy enthusiasm. Throughout her time in Okzat-Ozkat she begins to realize that the culture and society she was accustomed to in Dovza City was in fact not reflective of the cultures in less monitored cities. Within the last one hundred years (during Sutty's transit from Earth to Aka), the planet went through a major cultural wash. Many books were destroyed. Languages and customs forbidden. It is in Okzat-Ozkat where traces of the past linger and where Sutty makes her greatest discovery.

   The Telling. A religion without a clear definition. A religion that is highly regarded even in guarded times. Its weight isn't measured by conventional means. Its significance is in a way heightened due to the illegality of it. Carriers of the Telling, the maz, itinerants and typically elders, spread the Telling through oral renditions. The stories they tell are endless and in a beautiful way, the interpretations are as well. 

   What makes this religion very appealing you might ask? Aside from a spoiler (down below), it focuses on connection, community, and respect. It places worth on the mundane. It values a simple life and the experiences within one.

   There is an antagonist, a Monitor (whom Sutty prefers to label than name), who doesn't cater to the flashiness of a Terran in his presence. In the world of Aka, Terrans are known to possess knowledge and technology that is valuable which make the arrival of any Terran alien held in esteem. His significance goes beyond shallow motives like stopping Sutty from learning about secret societies as he harbors a secret that Sutty never would have imagined. 

   The story's strength comes from understanding the culture of this alien species and their customs. What is so rewarding about Le Guin's worldbuilding is that you can feel the history that's occurred by the language used (between characters this time—not Le Guin's writing) and the events that take place which explain the present way of life. Her worldbuilding reminds me of George R.R. Martin's A Song of Ice and Fire series. He doesn't baby the reader. You land in the action and you have to learn to keep up. (Though Le Guin has a softer, more eloquent way of landing you in the action.) Because, you the reader is not just comparing one small community's way of life to you the reader's reality—you need to compare it to the present dominant way of life on Aka AND against Sutty's memories of ways of living back on Terra. A pinch political, but Sutty wants to prevent what happened, the irreversible destruction on Terra, from happening here. It's honestly amazing Le Guin managed so much in a novel under 250 pages*.

   Now I know science fiction can be a little challenging in regards to relating to characters. Sutty doesn't have as many layers to her as Jamie Lannister, Frankenstein's Monster, Mattie Ross, etc, but like I mentioned above, she is in search of a truth, in particular a truth she was unable to find back on her home world. And I think all of us can connect in even a small way with wanting to know a bigger truth about our existence and being alive. I was glad she was the eyes we saw this world through. She's a historian, striving to be unbiased, eager to learn, open to listening—as readers we want to discover a world with as little influence from our pasts and to discover a world like everyone else. Not through only good experiences and not through only bad. We want the full spectrum, humor and tragedy and triumphs and lessons galore.

   I hate to be repetitive (again!) but this really is a landmark novel. It could take maybe even a couple reads to really appreciate the weight that this novel carries. Premise is one thing, delivery is another, but stamping an impression through your narrative that can transcend generations is an entire feat altogether. Ursula Le Guin, I only wish I could have met you—but thank you for your words. They will not be forgotten. 

I give this book 4.5/5 stars.

Quote:

"She was living among people to whom the highest spiritual attainment was to speak the world truly, and who had been silenced."

"There's a Hainish parable of the Mirror. If the glass is whole, it reflects the whole world, but broken, it shows only fragments, and cuts the hand that holds it."

-Ursula K. Le Guin, The Telling

My Goodreads:

https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/7170636-nicole

Next To Read:

The Only Good Indians by Stephen Graham Jones

Spoilers:

   I want to mention the spoiler about the Telling religion which I didn't want to give away in my review. The Telling is a religion of stories, many stories that almost never match exactly than when another maz tells it, however what I loved most about it is the fact that it's a religion that isn't at its root based on morals. Religions tend to be that way. They tend to dictate to people to perform a certain way. To not perform a certain way. To believe only what was told by a certain person or text. However the Telling doesn't derive its power from that. It is a religion of stories about people. It's focus is on community. You can extract lessons from their telling or you cannot. The Telling is meant to be a present ghost of people who lived long ago. Wicked or good, brave and foolish and fundamentally human (okay this is a stretch since Akans are literally aliens but you get my point). The stories are sometimes simple and sometimes heroic. At its base, they are stories of experiences, each unique because we all have experience life unique from one another. 

   Another strength Sutty learns about this religion is that due to its stripping of moral juice the religion only asks for people to listen. "Not to question, only to listen" (page 153, The Telling by Ace publishers, 2001). Perhaps its running on the coattails of recent years, but its something we in our instant gratification and social media society can all learn to relearn. (This girl included!) We can all slow down, make an effort to listen to one another.

    The Monitor was a character I couldn't quite put my finger on. I wanted more of his presence to be the textbook definition opposite force to my protagonist who causes turmoil and challenges—but Le Guin didn't want to tell the narrative you expect—nay want. In fact, the revelation that he actually grew up with the Telling and had been reformed into forgetting it and wanting to eradicate it was a very surprising and appropriate twist. It made his character more interesting by about 8 points and then made his suicide pages later more poetic, as it mirrors a story Sutty overheard a maz share not long before, (one that must've stayed with him after years). I would like to note how as Sutty begins to understand the Monitor, he becomes less a label and more of a person; lost as she was (mirrors everywhere! not just in stories ;) ), and eventually comes to regard him by his name (Le Guin let me tell you). 

   I thought I wanted to write an essay in this section about how incredible Le Guin's worldbuilding was, but upon reflection, I'm afraid it'll sound more like proof I read the book. While I've covered a fair amount, there is still so much I hadn't covered—locals in Okzat-Ozkat, stories maz share, Sutty's past, the politics on Aka and how the system was formed, what exists in the mountains. Too much for me to say without sharing an essay longer than the novel itself. I stand by wanting to grow and allowing myself the pleasure and honor of discovering something new each time I read this. How many books can I say that for?

   If you've gotten this far without reading it . . . naughty . . . but I'm glad I put my foot down. Go read this, wonderful you. I don't think you'll regret it.

Until Next Time,

Nicole Ciel

*My copy of The Telling is an Ace Trade paperback edition, published 2001

Washington Black Book Review

 Rawr Reader,

I am just shy of the first day of summer, but let me say welcome anyways because in Florida it definitely feels like summer started months ago. I've been on the hunt for a good "summer read" to kickoff the season and in my mind wouldn't settle for anything that didn't comprise of an adventure. And also, I love the cover. Hehe

The synopsis for Washington Black by Esi Edugyan is provided by Goodreads: 

 

A dazzling adventure story about a boy who rises from the ashes of slavery to become a free man of the world.

George Washington Black, or "Wash," an eleven-year-old field slave on a Barbados sugar plantation, is terrified to be chosen by his master's brother as his manservant. To his surprise, the eccentric Christopher Wilde turns out to be a naturalist, explorer, inventor, and abolitionist. Soon Wash is initiated into a world where a flying machine can carry a man across the sky, where even a boy born in chains may embrace a life of dignity and meaning--and where two people, separated by an impossible divide, can begin to see each other as human. But when a man is killed and a bounty is placed on Wash's head, Christopher and Wash must abandon everything.

What follows is their flight along the eastern coast of America, and, finally, to a remote outpost in the Arctic. What brings Christopher and Wash together will tear them apart, propelling Wash even further across the globe in search of his true self.

From the blistering cane fields of the Caribbean to the frozen Far North, from the earliest aquariums of London to the eerie deserts of Morocco, Washington Black tells a story of self-invention and betrayal, of love and redemption, of a world destroyed and made whole again, and asks the question, What is true freedom?

Reference:

I believe I was surfing Goodreads and I spotted this lovely cover under the Readers Also Enjoyed category.

Review:

    It almost evokes nostlagia. Reading can take us to far off places that have never existed and also transport us to revisit places we've known from our past. While I've never visited Barbados, the premise reminded me a lot of two personal favorite film of mine: The Mummy and The Mummy Returns. Subject matter differ in almost all fronts, yet we have an adventure spun from a hot environment where the protagonists are swept off to travel across at least one continent to recover something that has been lost to them.

    Firstly, Edugyan's writing is that melody of writing that makes the entire endeavor appear effortless. From the images of the plantation to the brutality of slaves, we're not only spectators of a past era but have become fully immersed in the scenes. We rage with soulless masters and tremble with helpless men. The cruelties inflicted are easy to envision yet hard to see, not the least cruelties inflicted between slaves themselves. 

    And our main set of eyes are through the eyes of young slave George Washington Black, a young boy who does his best to please both master and his personal protector, an older slave named Big Kit. Our endearing protagonist falls under the sight of the new master's brother, Christopher "Titch" Wilde, a scientist and rather alien specimen in Washington's eyes for the fact he doesn't act like most white men. In fact, he doesn't tolerate the institution of slavery at all. One way he wishes to combat his heartless brother is by enlisting Washington as an assistant in building an aerial machine, the Cloudcutter.

    From this point I couldn't stop reading. It's on the precipice of an illusion of fantasy even amongst the stains of human abuse and destruction. Washington will embark on a journey that will transform him not unlike many bildungsroman or coming-of-age tales. He will face cutthroat men, he will face kind men, he will face men who appear kind and are ruthless and likewise vicious-looking men who are in truth silent revolutionaries. A story on race cannot sidestep the presence of it and I felt throughout the story we feel that with Washington, not only as a black man, but as a disfigured man. He's at a disadvantage every step of the way and falls short in the eyes of the world even when he succeeds. Even being in accompaniment with a white man of privilege, his status is constantly at risk. His attachment to Titch grows and over time we begin to realize something. The attachment formed serves as much a hard blow to come as it does a comfort in the present.

    Titch is remarkably open-minded. He takes a young boy with no future and offers him one, and in this kindness the universe reveals a hidden ability: Washington's talent toward drawing. On one side his drawing allows him to help Titch with his experiments and research, on the other his drawing reveals untapped potential and sparks a new passion he was never allowed to experience before: an appreciation for nature. 

    Through a series of unfortunate events, Washington and Titch launch off of the Caribbean island. As indicated in the synopsis, we travel to America then north to the Arctic. We travel east to Europe and then to Africa. All the while Titch and Washington find moments of grace and encounter souls whose motivations we can less easily understand.

    The pair are likeable characters and I found the theme of inner growth profound. It isn't as clear at first what they are searching for, more in Titch's case than Washington as we are not in his mind, but over time as the quest continues and experiences are made, we begin to see how fragile and how strong the constitution of man is regardless of birth. Hurts range from white to black, from child to adult, from women to men, and that helping each other despite degree can be our greatest remedy and our greatest chance to enjoy and understand life.

    The ending brings readers back to the beginning, not literally of course, but in the mindset of our protagonist. Following the events Washington experiences throughout the novel, it sets him behind the lens and allows him to see the hurt Titch suffered not through the eyes of eleven-year-old Wash, but as a young adult Washington. The very last scene in particular I thought was very beautiful. I witnessed it more than felt the scene, and honestly I believe it made more of a lasting impression than had characters expressed themselves verbally or we readers were placed within the mind of the character. We were as vulnerable as the character. We were as exposed as the character. And we marched forward with the courage and uncertainty of the character. 

I give this book 4/5 stars.

Quote:

"You were more concerned that slavery should be a moral stain upon white men than by the actual damage it wreaks on black men."

-Washington Black 

Esi Edugyan, Washington Black

My Goodreads:
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Next To Read:

The Telling by Ursula K. Le Guin

Spoilers:

    I would like to say my greatest disappointment in this book was the fact that the book cover is very misleading. I signed up for an adventure aboard a flying ship, and we only got the first quarter of the book in it, and not even the entire first quarter, like one chapter. I understand the brevity, a metaphor of the way a young person views the world versus an adult—we can't see Washington growing up and viewing things of his past differently if he grew up living and being around the Cloudcutter. However what a device! I guess if it took up too much of the narrative the story would be drier and less comprised in realism. 

    I would like to give an Underdog Award (and I'm honestly very tempted to give one for each book moving forward) to someone I came to appreciate and like more than I thought I would: Philip. I didn't understand him at first. Not quite Titch but not quite Erasmus. By the end, when Titch explains to Washington that he and Erasmus mostly bullied him as children, I came to understand how the three men grew from that experience in their own ways. Titch wished to amend for his youthful cruelties, Philip never really grew confidence and sympathized with the helplessness of slaves, and Erasmus cradled his power and privilege above others. The tragedy of his death and bringing Washington to witness it is one of the most horrifying scenes in the novel and it is surprising how stealthily it arrived and then was done. 

     Titch's father, James Wilde, I couldn't really wrap my finger around. There are moments of tenderness toward his kin and assistant, but for me it felt more out of character. Not that a hard man can't show tenderness, but more like I didn't know what to do with those moments. I didn't feel pity toward him, I didn't like him more for it. It felt sort of left wasted on me. Peter Haus, his mute assistant, I cared more for, and his presence and focus had been less directed than the former. I did enjoy seeing his life outside of the Arctic amongst his family in Amsterdam, and he would probably be the runner-up to the Underdog Award.

    Not to say Washington and Titch weren't likeable and didn't have any layers of complexities to their characters. I loved the duo and only wished they spent the entire novel together instead of the first half. As with losing anyone important when you're young, I deeply felt Washington's loss—someone who has lost so much in life and lost what was not only a person who cared for him but someone who showed his potential and encouraged him. I was sad when Titch disappeared in the Arctic, I grieved for him even before Washington accepted it, which made the return of Titch even more moving by the end. 

    Now I won't deny the miraculous survival seemed a bit far-fetched—because really how did Titch survive the storm and know details about the days following his disappearance—however I love stories where people disappear and then return like the prodigal son. It's a win for Washington even if the reasons that he was abandoned for are unjustified. He found his dearest friend again, a man who might have saved him from an early death years ago.

    The supporting cast of characters we meet along the way are just as colorful and driven. We can follow their paths into an entirely new story and not feel like we've simply opened a new storyline for zero purpose. Peter Haus, Tanna and Mr. Goff, Edgar Farrow, Captain Benedikt Kinast, some of the most peculiar cast of characters that made this adventure feel authentic.

    One of the main antagonists on the other hand, John Willard, was more of a plot device than a real character and was one of the weakest of the cast. I don't really have much to add on his part. 

    The end took me some time to mull over. Initial thoughts were along the lines of "that's it?" But then I seemed to be arriving back to the beginning of the circle and I found it left a stronger impression that I had thought. Washington's arrival and time in Morocco is short compared to other areas of the book, but I think that was part of the appeal. He steps into a storm in a desert much like his predecessor Titch who in a struggle of conscience abandoned his earthly ties because that decision in the Arctic was when adult Washington Black blossomed from young, naive Wash. Growing up and becoming an adult without Titch he'd been stumbling along, still attached and grieving over Titch's death. Having found him years later he was finally able to unleash his deepest, suppressed grievances and I hope become a more confident man. From this desert storm who knows what Washington will do. A shade of open-ended I thought was cleverly and visually evocative. I really really love that ending.

    The enthusiasm for the Ocean House and showcasing unusual creatures out of their element was another metaphor I appreciated. While seemingly random and maybe even awkward in its presence, the interest in marine animals seemed to be a nod for his lost friend, a man of science who valued all living things and wanted to preserve and appreciate that which exists and that is different. Add to the list another reason what makes this story more unique, and strange, and delightful: Washington's interspecies friendship with an octopus. How many people can say that?

Until Next Time,

Nicole Ciel

    

 

The Midnight Library Book Review

Rawr Reader,

Happy Memorial Day weekend for my American readers. I hope you are able to enjoy an extra day off. I have found myself unforeseeably blessed with a streak of enjoyable reads which I hope I'm not jinxing by observing.
My mom and sister have read this book and both recommended it to me so it was a promising start as neither of them incline toward reading fiction. So let's dive in!

The synopsis of The Midnight Library by Matt Haig is provided by Goodreads:

Between life and death there is a library, and within that library, the shelves go on forever. Every book provides a chance to try another life you could have lived. To see how things would be if you had made other choices . . . Would you have done anything different, if you had the chance to undo your regrets?”

A dazzling novel about all the choices that go into a life well lived, from the internationally bestselling author of Reasons to Stay Alive and How To Stop Time.

Somewhere out beyond the edge of the universe there is a library that contains an infinite number of books, each one the story of another reality. One tells the story of your life as it is, along with another book for the other life you could have lived if you had made a different choice at any point in your life. While we all wonder how our lives might have been, what if you had the chance to go to the library and see for yourself? Would any of these other lives truly be better?

In The Midnight Library, Matt Haig’s enchanting new novel, Nora Seed finds herself faced with this decision. Faced with the possibility of changing her life for a new one, following a different career, undoing old breakups, realizing her dreams of becoming a glaciologist; she must search within herself as she travels through the Midnight Library to decide what is truly fulfilling in life, and what makes it worth living in the first place.

Reference:

The Midnight Library was nominated for the Goodreads Choice Awards in 2020 for Fiction and interesting fact: won the award from second place by 5 votes! Safe to say I've seen it all over Bookstagram, Twitter, and on Recommended Shelves in bookstores.

Review:

    Suicide is a tough conversation to broach. Every year that passes people, social media, and literature is becoming more vocalized about the social stigmas of suicidal thoughts, depression, loneliness, mental health, and asking for help. From disassociation to personal tragedies to natural disasters, this world can be an incredibly difficult place to cope in. Despondency of our lives combined with the loss of a willingness to continue is a growing issue. While I think ardent readers are more inclined to emotionally connect with the circumstances of others, even less frequent readers can find that capacity in Haig's novel.

    We meet Nora Seed, a young, down-on-her-luck woman who suffers one tragedy after another within the span of a day. The tipping point sets off our protagonist on a spiritual journey to a place many readers might connect with: the library. Only this library isn't like the one you might think of from school or that public building in your community. It's a library that you can quite literally get lost in with no end, no people, and have shelves of books with—instead of stories of new people and places within its book flaps—be comprised entirely of lives you could have lived had you made different decisions. An episode of Doctor Who I enjoy is in the fourth season with Donna called "Turn Left," which jumps off that concept and elaborates. What would Donna's life have been like if instead of turning right she turned left, because turning left meant meeting The Doctor and having a collection of adventures and one day even saving the planet!

    You know I can talk for hours on Doctor Who so I'll leave it there, but what if you could see the other lives you could have lived? Would you take it? Nora has that opportunity, seeing what her life would be like becoming a glaciologist, a rock star, an Olympic swimmer, and many more possible dreams. But over "time," as time does not actually exist in the Midnight Library, Nora begins to learn something about each of these lives. 
    While there are no other people in the library, there is one "guide," an old librarian from Nora's youth called Mrs. Elm. Mrs. Elm is the omniscient and single constant in the Midnight Library. Explaining when things go wrong and steering Nora toward lives she should try out, we feel a sense of safety in her presence that honestly I can't disassociate from what a paradigm librarian might appear like: informative, attentive, and who is an esteemed custodian of a place that is more than the sum of its contents. 

    Magical realism is such a hard subgenre to describe but the world that Haig builds is unique. The facet of this jewel I can't describe in any other words is that it's somber yet heartening. I can't help but add his library to the collection of other libraries I've heard about like in Victoria Schwab's The Archived, Carlos Ruiz Zafón's Cemetery of Forgotten Books series, Erin Morgenstern's The Starless Sea, and I could never exclude the libraries in the 1994's film The Pagemaster, 1991's Beauty and the Beast, or Wan Shi Tong's Library in 2005's tv series Avatar: The Last Airbender.
    As characters come and go with a few recurrent and revisited faces like Joe, Nora's brother, and Ravi, her brother's friend, and Izzy, Nora's friend, I'd like to discuss Nora's character for a minute. One is I love how vastly interested she is in subjects ranging from science to music to sports to animals. Nora is on hobby overload which for that alone I can definitely see why it's overwhelming and intimidating to not only be interested in these things but be good at them and a dependable source on the activity/subject matter. She has to compete for her father's approval while also compete against her brother's favor. The pressure put on her at a young age made an impression that even if there is no one applying pressure on her she applies the pressure of success on herself and the guilt of not pursuing something she could have succeeded at. We all have regrets like that, which is one of the plot points of the story, and I enjoyed the interpretation of the theme of regret, major and minor ones, throughout Nora's journey.

    Guilt is an invisible burden many people carry subconsciously or not and it can definitely trickle down so subtly into the fabric of our lives that people may not even be aware of its presence until they're in a state of helplessness. What if I stayed in a relationship I'd left? What if I studied this in school over this? What if I stayed in school for longer? What if I moved instead of staying where I was? The questions can go on forever and the answers exponentially so. And all the while, the unrealized and unachieved potential is growing and digging a person further into the ground until they can't crawl their way back out. Haig shows this beautifully as Nora experiences her "what-could-have-been" lives. It isn't just that she feels lost. Haig reciprocally shows how it isn't about losing or gaining relationships or opportunities, but simply another life she could have lived.
    And I don't mean that simply. Because it isn't something Nora realized after one incident. And it isn't something to be defined as easily as that. There's a little more to it, which of course you'll have to read to discover, but Nora's story through the heartbreak, loss, and tragedy is only one side of it . . . the side Nora exemplifies in her recitation of her favorite philosopher Henry David Thoreau: "It's not what you look at that matters, it's what you see."

    Death is dark, but Haig spins what is a dark subject into a new opportunity. A beautiful adventure. A fresh start.

I give this book 4/5 stars.

The National Suicide Prevention Hotline for the United States is:
 1-800-273-8255

or you can visit: 
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Quote:
"Maybe that's what all lives were, though . . . Maybe that was the only meaning that mattered. To be the world, witnessing itself."
-Matt Haig, The Midnight Library

My Goodreads:
https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/7170636-nicole

Next To Read:
Washington Black by Esi Edugyan

Spoilers:

   While overall this story had momentum, then lost it, then gained it again, I am actually very moved and touched by the message it relays. We all have countless versions of ourselves in parallel universes (yes our dreams might have come true if we pursued them more ardently), but also maybe dreams we sculpt are merely creations we build for ourselves since we're discontent with our current lives. Maybe in these others lives we get what we wanted, but at the same time lose something we took for granted. 
    Haig's message is simple. His delivery is simple. Yet over the course of the novel it's so complicated with Nora's multitude of lives and experiences that I reflect on the story as a whole and marvel. I grasp Thoreau's quote that Nora repeats incessantly with relentless fingers because I myself have grappled with depression, in a state of not wanting to go on, thinking myself worthless, thinking myself lost of any potential for anything. And it's *so* tough to get out of it. I applaud the people who ask for help. I applaud the people who seek help. Who can talk about it. I applaud the people who admit there's a serious mental health issue today and doesn't shut it down, because once we close off the validity of someone's experiences or feelings, then we cut off a person's capacity to recover and heal.

    The parallel universes and the quantum mechanics/physics wasn't a particularly favorite part of the story for me—as it was leaning toward sci-fi and I was comfortable in the magical realistic plains of the story—but I appreciate why it was introduced and ended up appreciating it a lot more because it introduced us to someone else. Another "slider," Hugo, as he himself patented their existing states. He was actually one of my favorite characters. An existence uniquely unlike any other, his approach to life —> seemed, <— ironically, contradictory to Nora's defeated one and I wish we got to interact with him at least once more in another one of Nora's possible lives. If there was a book on him I'd actually be really interested to read it and see Nora's influence to his life through his eyes. What did he have regrets on? What was his life like? Did he share Nora's end? I need the answers Mr. Haig! Hehe.

    I'm only partially torn on the ending of her Midnight Library excursions in her final life, the one where she has a "perfect" life. The library sucks her out of that life. It wasn't a choice I wish she had made to leave knowing that while it was her, it wasn't really her life. It wasn't her experiences. She just enjoyed the circumstances of that perfect life orchestrated by another her. 
    The ending mirroring the beginning was predictable though, but predictable in a comforting, nostalgic way. Mrs. Elm was there for Nora in one of her darkest and loneliest times when she was young and in turn she became that source of comfort for Mrs. Elm when she was on her own in a retirement center. There's something about coming full circle, literally and metaphorically and emotionally and spiritually that explains why The Midnight Library resonates with such a wide audience. In these dismal times, books about hope can never be in short supply.

You are not alone.

Stay safe friends. 

Until Next Time,
Nicole Ciel

The Vanishing Half Book Review

 Rawr Reader,

It's both troubling and tragic when the only reason you finish a book is because it's a loan from the library and the due date is fast approaching. I am half-ashamed, half-grateful. How else am I going to be getting any reading done? As of late I've been watching Schitt's Creek, every day easily overlooking the books on my desk for the TV remote.

On a positive note: Happy Earth Day!

The synopsis for The Vanishing Half by Brit Bennett is provided by Goodreads, my main source for all things books and recommendations.

The Vignes twin sisters will always be identical. But after growing up together in a small, southern black community and running away at age sixteen, it's not just the shape of their daily lives that is different as adults, it's everything: their families, their communities, their racial identities. Many years later, one sister lives with her black daughter in the same southern town she once tried to escape. The other secretly passes for white, and her white husband knows nothing of her past. Still, even separated by so many miles and just as many lies, the fates of the twins remain intertwined. What will happen to the next generation, when their own daughters' storylines intersect?

Weaving together multiple strands and generations of this family, from the Deep South to California, from the 1950s to the 1990s, Brit Bennett produces a story that is at once a riveting, emotional family story and a brilliant exploration of the American history of passing. Looking well beyond issues of race, The Vanishing Half considers the lasting influence of the past as it shapes a person's decisions, desires, and expectations, and explores some of the multiple reasons and realms in which people sometimes feel pulled to live as something other than their origins.

Reference:

This was all over Instagram last year and not only was it nominated for the Goodreads 2020 Choice Awards under the Historical Fiction category—but won. Considering I'd started several other winners from the GR 2020 Awards, I should've had expectations on how this would pan out.

Review:

     Passing is a facet of storytelling I rarely come across, so when I kept hearing raving reviews about this novel on Instagram and Goodreads I was eager to see how story of the Vignes twins would unfold. 

     As a personal preference, multi-generational stories are not necessarily for me. Walking in a book store if I pick up a novel and it says a story spanning three generations, I almost immediately put the book back. I did read Wild Swans: Three Daughters of China by Jung Chang in college and really enjoyed it, however for some reason those stories don't pop in my to be read pile.

     The Vanishing Half covers two generations and over the course of twenty to thirty years. Before I go onto the reasons why this didn't appeal to me, I will say that highlighting the years our Vignes twins leave home at sixteen to their middle-aged years—and the breadth of that time (twenties and thirties especially) which is still a time for reflecting and discovering who someone is—is the heart of this novel. To be more specific, each twin discovering who they are and who they want to be, as women, as women of color—even passing, and as a twin but growing to live on their own.

      To be frank, Desiree's part of the novel didn't make me enthusiastic to continue reading. I had this book on loan from the library for three weeks and I was stuck in Desiree's chapter for a good two thirds of it. I found Desiree as a character had little ambition—which I understand due to certain circumstances that happen between leaving Mallard when she was sixteen and returning a decade later (spoiler 2), however as being the twin we first meet and who would set the stage for the novel, she seemed the least interesting of the four major characters.

     We follow her to Jude, more interesting and more driven than her mother, who takes us from a small southern town to Los Angeles at the age of eighteen. She meets Reese, a trans man, and they fall in love almost at first sight. The potential relationship/ friendship/ whatever-was-about-to-transpire had me until this ease, the lovey dovey eye fluttering reliance on one another. For a novel set in the seventies, I didn't believe that a relationship involving a black woman and a white trans man would play out so easily. Their story isn't the focus of the novel and they had bumps along the road, but any real challenges they faced were usually resolved over a matter of days and the challenges seemed less momentous and almost inconsequential, like they didn't need to be mentioned in the overarching story of how the black daughter of a passing woman lived her life.

     A small tangent off of that, I know that for the amount of words or pages allowed to the author Reese's and Jude's story couldn't go longer than it did, I just felt there wasn't much more for the reader than to prove Jude's loyalty to her boyfriend in helping him transition. I think Jude should have had more of her chapters interacting with her cousin. Personally I felt introducing a trans person was more of an accessory than an independent contribution to the story.

     Where did the book pick up? With our lost Vignes twin, the one for a good amount of time I wasn't so sure we would ever meet. (But meet we did! The synopsis would've been misleading if we hadn't.) An opposite personality from her sister, Stella's story is tragic. Being more of a reserved person myself, I empathized with Stella's reluctance to share with anyone hurts from her youth, even with someone as close as her sister. Hurts from her past transformed her when Desiree and Stella decided to run away from their hometown, and with the added shield of passing, she had the fortunate ability to become someone new.

     It's with Stella that we see passing in action. It gets her a job. It finds her a beau then eventually a husband, who uproots them to an upscale life she never imagined for herself in her small hometown. However her husband doesn't know she's black, and this is a secret she carries for years. She shed her old life and the connections of her past for a life where she is both safe and yet constantly afraid the truth of her heritage will somehow find her.

      The parallels can't be ignored. They are vivid yet subtle in their interweaving. Desiree the outgoing twin, Stella the quiet one. Desiree marries a black man, Stella a white man. Their children are images of their fathers, yet their characters reflect their aunts. Jude is confident and hardworking, yet reserved due to the nature of her childhood and growing up in a town of black people where her darker skin is undesirable. Then we have Kennedy who is white, privileged, and outspoken. I guess from there she becomes more like her mother, throwing away opportunities to manifest what her mother has designed through her upbringing, a person who will wear a mask and make their way through life being another person.

      Desiree falls to the background, remaining in Louisiana's small town, however Stella is almost always present, due to Kennedy's direct connection to her or Jude's thoughts on learning anything on her estranged aunt. It was fine with me because Stella was the one who was taking on a role and living by that role like her life depended on it. Which it did. Constantly I waited for other shoe to drop. (Spoiler 1)

      Of all the characters Stella was the most complex. However her capricious thoughts and actions, swaying one way to the other was infuriating. Characters need to be consistent, and I couldn't be sure at first if it was meant to show Stella as this erratic, paranoid character or if it was the author not delivering her onto the page as she should. I would come to find it was the latter, when the same thing would happen to other characters like throughout scenes from Jude's POV then to Kennedy's, all the scenes concerning the other and how the two women wanted to meet/speak with the other but then didn't. After a couple pages of this and the capriciousness expanding from one to three of the main characters, I cared less about Stella finding the courage to return to her hometown and reunite with her family and more about finishing the book.

    To be brief, I found the ending unsatisfactory and left me with more questions. (Spoiler 3). It isn't every day I find a novel where the beginning and end are less interesting and the middle would be what kept me going. Funny right?

    Overall, what I felt wasn't working was time placement. Although stated at the beginning of sections what decade the following chapters would be taken place, I felt this was a more contemporary read then one set in the sixties/seventies/eighties. It fell under the umbrella of not enough conflict from outside sources, or having historical events described in greater details, but I didn't believe the story was set when it said it was. And considering the subject matter is of race, I would've thought the events unfolding between the characters would be more external and impactful.       

I give this book 3.5/5 stars.

Quote:

"As they grew, they no longer seemed like one body split in two, but two bodies poured into one, each pulling it her own way."

"At night, Desiree held her daughter and told her stories about her own childhood. At first she said, I have a sister named Stella, then, you have an aunt, then once upon a time, a girl named Stella lived here."

-The Vanishing Half, Brit Bennett

My Goodreads:

https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/7170636-nicole

Next To Read:

The Midnight Library by Matt Haig

Spoilers:

     I wasn't reticent about finding the characters to be unreliable and inconsistent, most notably Stella, ironically my favorite character of the cast. I mention in my review that I wait for something to happen which never does, (Spoiler 1) that being that she never admits to and it's never revealed to her husband that she's black. In fact, her husband's main contribution was being white and having money. His presence—if it can even be described as such—is without much conflict, and if there is little conflict or tension between him and Stella, things resolve so easily and by the end of the scene/chapter it makes him uninteresting. 

    Stella avoids any and every aspect that connects her with her heritage, yet still sleeps with a bat behind her headboard the nights her husband isn't there. Considering she suffered grievously in her youth, first witnessing her father's torture and learning he's been murdered, then being molested multiple times by a white man, I understand why she becomes the person she does. While she causes pain to her sister when she abandons her, I still give her the excuse to make the choices she makes. She wants independence from a life that has only offered her sadness and tragedy. It's when she begins to both turn on black people and at the same time try to earn their favor after acquiring a higher social status that I began to respect her less and find her as annoying as a high schooler. Being a person who can't reveal who she really is to even the closest people in her life, I can see why she questions herself constantly and retreats to safety when confronted by neighbors or her family, however the execution of it, and the repetition scene to scene got old quickly.

     It seemed the trait was hereditary as Kennedy begins to capriciously push then pull when Jude comes into her life and reveals a big secret about her. If I were Jude I wouldn't want to be affiliated with let alone be related to these people who clearly want to see themselves as apart. But they're still family regardless right? I don't know. I think if less had been about Reese and more of that time had been on Kennedy and Jude, I would have learned of more interactions between the unbalanced cousins and accepted their rocky relationship more.

    How about Desiree and her abusive husband? (Spoiler 2) He was another page of the past I thought would reemerge but never did. He seemed at least a little in part to care for his daughter, goes so much to hire a private detective, but never actually goes to his wife's hometown to see for himself his wife and daughter are there? He just gave up and moves on with a new wife and kids? (By the way she never got an outright divorce so I guess he was married to two women at once??) I just didn't believe it. It seemed as effective as a band-aid on a severed artery.

      And I was hours until my loan was to be returned, so I may have sped read the last couple of pages, but did anyone find the ending rather abrupt? (Spoiler 3). Or maybe the significance was spotlighted on the wrong people? We're taken to the day of the funeral where Jude and her boyfriend go swimming. Stella never returns. Kennedy never visits. Desiree relocates to some random city and doesn't even try to pick up fingerprint reading or management. And Early? We don't get a real goodbye? It's like the author was running out of pages allowed by the publisher and she needed to wrap everyone up quickly. 

      

Until Next Time,

Nicole Ciel